The Situation In My Life And Michigan.

Anyways, I saw the lady in charge of my treatment and medicine at that new place Wednesday. And she said a couple of interesting things. She was contradicting herself, or at least being evasive. Evasive deliberately of course. I asked her if my current dose of Olanzapine, 2.5 mg, was safe. Like they assured me at Sinai-Grace hospital this summer. She said most of the time, no. I said what does most of the time mean? Give me a percentage. She said 40%. As I told her, statistically that would be considered half. Then I asked if I could stop taking those dangerous, damaging drugs. And she said not without you legal guardian Eric present at a meeting.

So obvious conclusions: Eric or the court are still having my doctors lie to me. Probably Eric, I think is what that all meant. 2.5 mg is dangerous, it is damaging me. I really shouldn't I be taking it at all now. They would have stopped by now if I was a felon in prison. And I may be in the final stages of neuropathy in my feet. Things seem to have changed rapidly in just the past weeks it seems. And I am and have never been a danger to myself or others. But my legal guardian and protector Eric still thinks it's justified. He's hurt me, lied to me, deceived and manipulated me. Him and/or the court. It's just true, and that's just what I know. And now he has abandoned me and left me, friendless and without family and no way to take care of myself on my own without assistance. Nothing is being done, no one is helping me and this all continues as it is. But the law supports that, they tell me. And now I'll need expensive lifelong care. And face terrible medical issues and decisions I never would have before. Someone should pay for all of that.

And I have no access to the legal system. If I find a probate lawyer for free (if they ever return my correspondence) he'll deny my case exists. Again, unless Eric wants to pay for one. I can't handle this on my own. I couldn't when I was still an angry young man in 1992. Others will have to do everything, including initiating it all for me, and now.

And my neighbor friend tells me he knows nothing of this, there is no secret guardianship system in Michigan and I'm imagining all this. No, no and no to all of that. And I don't think I'm the only one harmed by it. My therapist said I could get a lot of people in a lot of trouble for this. Again I certainly hope so. And soon.