Just wanted to post and say that things seem to have improved for me. I am in therapy.... which I hate, but sticking with it to see whether it helps. I'm trying to stay sober....this is really hard. Thanks to those who have been supportive. Those who haven't - I couldn't care less about you right now. You wont get me down anymore.
Knew You Could Do It Luv You Have a Lot to Offer Here and in life !! I look Forward To More of this Positive Thinking From You
Obviously the problem was the oppression of the EU, which Brexit has now cured. I think Boris Johnson should take the credit here.
http://youtu.be/lg0IOBT7PIY You can make it if you try You can make it if you try Push a little harder Think a little deeper Don't let the plastic Bring you down
no one will reply to this and thats ok. I saw a new doctor, got new meds, got a diagnosis and got new therapy. doesn't seem to have changed anything. the diagnosis shows I'm a rubbish person who people get fed up of and walk away from. leaving me alone as usual. apparently the paranoia and voice is all part of "my thoughts" and i need to reprogramme myself. well thats pretty unlikely isn't it. so, sorry, you're just going to keep getting fed up with me until i actually end it all.
Do you know exactly why those people get fed up with you and walk away and find you a rubbish person? The only reason why I wouldn't reply (except for some empathic message that although sincere probably sound repetitive to you) is because im afraid I've nothing more worthwile to say or ask that a therapist or doctor haven't already.
because thats what happens to people with this crappy diagnoses. feeling that i am ignored if one of the worst fucking feelings. i know I'm a nuisance. i have to live with me. I'm messed up. and soon i'll be gone.
Maybe they're not fed up with you, maybe they're just dealing with their own shit. Maybe you should call and see how they are, think about someone else and get out of your own head for a while.
