I'm Some Sort Of Fucked

Everything is so dull around me.
I'm bitter and cold. I'm overly-sarcastic. I'm socially incompetent.
I'm sad. I'm angry.
I'm lost.
I tell myself I hate everyone.
I push everyone away.
I'm lonely.
I'm paranoid.
I'm anxious.
I feel trapped.
I can't cope.
It all gets pushed inside while I'm just functional enough to squeeze by.
I don't know when I'll break down again.

 

I'm the same. I play the fool and keep it inside and just carry on doing what I do that makes people smile and laugh as if my problems and the feeling of emptiness doesn't bother me.

You just got to do what you go to do to get by my friend.

 

have you tried exercising + healthy diet? dont blame your problems on anything untill you take care of that first.

 

Join the club. While diet and exercise has helped considerably, I have come to accept the fact I will always be an outsider and at odds with the world. It's just a fact of life for some people. It's who we are.

 

Yes. I was forced to take up a healthier diet due to digestive issues and I get a healthy amount of exercise. I do feel okay while exercising, although It doesn't help the majority of my problems, and it's only a quick fix.

 

Seems you're a ticking bomb.. I can relate.. get some help if you really can't cope

 

I go to cognitive behavioral therapy. I'm trying man. I've got a great therapist, better than any of the 5 i'd tried before. Maybe something good will come of this.

 

What do you eat?

 

it sounds like most of your problems are social. but you cant just try to fix your "social problems". all areas of your life are interconnected. health, wealth, social life, love life, are all connected to your overall happiness.

if you honestly think your health is OK, then work on your social problems. thats probably the hardest thing for people to do, ive done it myself.

if i could give you one peice of advice: you will be extremely surprised at how some pussy will fix most of those problems. i know this is very hard to accept, but when you have pussy in your life, you dont feel sad or angry. you dont feel lonely cuz your cuddling up with your boo. pussy releaves alot of stress. it will also give you the confidence that may have stopped you before from having friends.

i know i joke alot here, but im really serious about this. lack of pussy can cause a man to go through depression, thats a fact!

 

okay

 

I honestly don't agree that it's about diet... just as long as you're not eating pizza or junk food everyday... I think it's all in your attitude... yes, shit happens, to everyone... some people seem to have it harder than others, myself included, but you need to look on the bright side of things.. have some optimism... and you say you're getting help so be grateful for that... some people can't afford it...

 

vaginal therapy. change your life.

 

Meditation...and change your mind, we are a product of our thinking. It's your movie, edit it to be the way you want it to be. And, I want to give you a hug.

 

make sure there isn't a lunatic attached to it or it damn will change your life

 

I got a blowjob from one of my female friends just a few days ago, and I am still depressed. Then again it could have to do with the fact that today is my birthday, and I am spending it alone. Not that I really give a shit about "celebrating" it, I guess I am just depressed because I am getting older.

Then again maybe actual pussy is what I need. lol

 

:leaving:

 

I thought you said keto eliminated your depression??

btw happy b day. i dont care bout celebrating mine either.

 

Happy Birthday!

 

sometimes i contemplate my choice of being single. i feel cool as fuck when im hanging out with a chick or when i get laid, but thats usually all the interaction i have. i met an asian girl last week who i was fingering and making out with and after that episode i tried calling her back and got super rejected! im trying to work on getting more female friends who i can have an actual relationship with.

but i also know all those feelings will fly out the windows when go out again this weekend, then its back to a lonely monday!

 

Yeah, it did.... mostly. It made me not feel suicidal. If I said it eliminated my depression, well... that's a bit of a stretch. I am far less depressed than I used to be, though I still get depressed from time to time. It usually doesn't last, though, and seems mostly limited to my nights off from work when I am alone.