She Has A "boyfriend" But Is On The Down Low With Me...?

Hi. this is a tough situation lol and there is alot of history ( i have other threads explaining more of my situation) but basically at the beginning of 2013 i met this girl, that night i said i am a lesbian and she then was like inseperable with me. We "had a thing" from about april 2013- october 2013. We would makeout nonstop and she'd always come onto me, and 9/10 times when drinking she would be the one initiating our hookups. Well In october she started acting weird and said how shed been feeling guilty about stuff etc etc and started acting cold to me ( She is Latina, extremely catholic, and her mom is super homophobic). Well then about a week later she freaked out and said how she is " SO STRAIGHT" etc, but then i said how i could tell she was going thru problems and i am here for her , then she said "You are right... I am just SO CONFUSED i DONT even know!!!!!!" ok well following that she avoided me like the plague for about 7 months ( aside from having me spend her birthday with her). she basically went MIA fromthe world, stopped drinking ( she told our gay friend she needed to stop drinking bc everytime it made her want to kiss me so bad!), and she stopped going out... well then in June she contacted me and we talked. then a week later she told me " Come over, i am having my 1st beer in 5 months!!)... ok well i ended up going there, and she wanted me to sleep over, which i did. we only cuddled and held hands <3. Ok well So now we are back on campus and she tells me she has a boyfriend, i was pissed, but ok so i met up with them one night and under the table at the bar, she holds my hand, then she wants to come back to my place, where she had NOTHING to do with her boyfriend. he was like, WTF... and told her he was gonna leave. she said, ok and she was gonna stay at my place LOL. so literally he left, then me and her hooked up the rest of the night until 7am it was amazing! She told me how what she has with him will NEVER compare to us, and she loves me ... haha soooo im in a bit of a dilemma... Because i am like in love with this girl , and i KNOW she loves me. our connection is insane. But she has a boyfriend, and basically sneaks from him on the down low with me. ... ANy advice on what you think is going on in her head?... does she care about me?... Do you think she'll ever accept who she is? Is she in denial orr what's going on?...Im thankful she is back in my life but This situation is causing me to feel depressed . and and by the way, i am 23 and she is 21. thanks

 

Shes not in denial. She just using her boyfriend as a beard to keep her family happy. Shes catholic so she can't come out in the open. She likes you but your second best. If you want a proper relationship where your partner is proud to show you off to the world, where you would get the their full attention then you should find someone who is not already in a relationship.