Such a wretched curse takes its toll on me As I walk in cracked shoes with swollen feet Bending aching knees under bulging weight Peeling oily hair off a tear-stained face Try to reach around toward a constant itch Find a long-tined fork, scratch with bloody tips Now, my un-nursed breasts roll like lifeless heads As all thoughts of love wash away in red From reopened scars left by careless hands Leaving me diseased by my own demands Tried to drown them out with sweet songs of light But each ghastly voice leaves a bitter blight And the two who walked with me arm-in-arm Think me like a child full of pleasing charm While at night they lay warm in bed beside Every promised prize turned to endless bride So, I view the world with a longing stare Beat my trusted heart for the lusty fare All their tortured minds filled with thoughts of me Twist like violent winds dropping fruit from trees Picking writhing worms out of shining skin Bruising speckled flesh, now I rot within Once worth many words, now the frame is cracked There’s no second sun when the rain is black Now, the deadly filth floods my treasured dreams Severs family ties, tears apart the seams Catch a falling star, find a glittering gem Lift my heavy wings off to fly with them Cast myself away like a freed balloon Just one pull and this will be over soon Now, the air is warm and my body’s numb Forsake what once was as the darkness comes Hellfire in my head as the air grows thin Fingers claw for life, strip away the sin Loose the knotted cloth, fail my final test Heavy eyelids drop as I lay to rest Wakened by the noise of the mundane grind Strain to hear the voice far beneath my mind Try to live again as I did before Forced to give it all but can’t take much more Ask the blustery sky for a ray of sun Shiver in the cold, seems the curse has won Give away my thoughts, can’t afford to feel If my bleeding heart drained the dreams concealed By the choking layers of fear, pain and strife Peel them back to find that my curse is life
Really, no responses ~~* 'Tried to drown them out with sweet songs of light But each gastly voice leaves a bitter blight' Powerful, evocative of a very strong soul, betwix now and then, expecting and receiving dual bliss.
