it's only paranoia when you take it personal. i wouldn't wave my good fortune in anyone else's face. that's just plain ignorant and dumb. the more you have the less you need to impress anyone. i'd get some of the things i've been wanting i haven't been able to afford, but none of them are the sorts of things people get to try and impress each other, just industrial and engineering tools. i might get a piece of land somewhere, if it was enough to do so, or a nice little long bed cargo van. nothing show offy. that's not because of paranoia though. just what i'm interested in and what i'm not.