i wish i could go forward or sideways to someplace where university engineering libraries were free and open to the general public.
as they were most places i lived in the 70s and even well into the 80s.
where the purpose of education was to make useful knowledge, skills and abilities available to all who might wish to seek them,
and not to hoard useful knowledge by privatizing it.
where you didn't even have to take classes, but could take as many or as few as you felt like, in whatever subjects might happen to interest you.
where news isn't infotainment, learning isn't propaganda, and both are about a real universe that isn't about hierarchy or little green pieces of paper.
you can download almost any book or study material, even whole "courses" if you wish ... a lot of learning can be had for free.