Why do I enjoy sucking cock so much?

I love being a submissive bitch to a man with a big, thick cock. The man I am currently sucking has 9" & is very dominant. While I am sucking him he indulges in a lot of verbal abuse. He calls me ****, faggot, cocksucker, cum whore, etc. If he finishes on my face instead of in my mouth, he makes me wear his semen on my face while he enjoys an after-sex cocktail. Then he puts me on my knees & rinses the cum from my face with his warm piss. I crave the humiliation he gives me. My cock is rock hard afterwards & he has me beat off & eat my own cum. My wife watches the entire time.

 

Wow. Interesting insight. I have to say that makes quite a bit of sense. Is there anything else you can tell me? I have so many questions.

 

I've recently accepted that I am bisexual and a cocksucker who craves the feel of a shaft in my mouth. I'm also only sub with males and not women, no idea why. I'd love to have a straight guy use my mouth roughly while he calls me a faggot and maybe slaps me around like a whore. And I'd love to have my face fucked when he cums.

 

don't know if you're still on the site, but also in western ny.

 

Interesting. I also find that gay porn doesn't turn me on, but that I've had some pretty hot fantasies about having sex with a man. Never done it, but I'm getting more and more curious. Is it the taboo? Wanting to try a little role reversal (being the woman)? Wanting to play with a cock other than my own? Not interested in kissing or hugging another man, that just seems weird.

 

ok after I posted this I cruised craigslist and chatted with a guy. He sent me a cock shot and I REALLY wanted to have it in the flesh. It was large and stiff. I'm imagining the moment, down on my knees, that I open my mouth wide and slide my lips around his stiff shaft. I'm hoping for a big finish with cum spraying all over my face.

This is crazy. I'm married, middle aged and never done anything with a man!

 

I also think about sucking dicks all the time. I'm obsessed. I'd suck 10 a day if I could. I'm lucky not to drop to my knees every time I pass a guy on the street. And I would absolutely love to suck on one or several hung black men.

 

That is what I was trying to say in another thread. Well said.

 

As I said on another thread, I too have always had a desire to suck dicks but have never had physical attraction to men. It must be just the fetish thing. I don't consider myself Bi. Have been married for many years. Is interesting that quite a few other 'straights' seem to have such a desire.

 

For people that into labels (as I sometimes am), I would say that bisexual can mean different things. Some people consider sex with either sex to be bisexual, but other people really mean it to be have a relationship with either sex.

I for one am not attracted to men. I don't want to kiss, hold hands, but when the mood strikes, it can really turn me on to imagine playing with a nice hard cock and having somebody play with mine. To experience somebody entering me with a thick hard hungry cock!

 

xyzniloc - it seems you are so so ready for your first experience! If you do decide to go for it, make sure you wait for what you feel is the right person to give you exactly what you want...wait for a normal and nice guy with a large and hard cock and enjoy the hell out of it!

 

I think I'm too nervous to go for it. What if he's a freak or a blackmailer? What if he's really a big gay slut who sleeps around a lot and has diseases? I guess if you search carefully you can find someone like yourself, look at all the guys on this forum.

Maybe in reality I just wouldn't be into it, but I do have more and more fantasies about stroking and yes sucking a big hard cock! Pretty sure I'd willing to have mine sucked in return...

 

xyz..., Your "what if's" will keep you on the fence forever as your life goes by and keep you a prisoner.
Suggest that you both meet at a convenient neutral spot, ?McDonald's, I've done that.
Get a feel for the guy. Don't automatically preconceive him to be Jeffery Dahmer. Chances are much better that he's a nice guy who is experimenting just as you are and will be just as nervous.
Best wishes!

 

That's a great point, picture having fun with somebody like you, there are definitely guys out there that are very like you, curious, horny, afraid, married, or some combination of those things. I can almost guarantee (without knowing you XYZ), that the moment you have a nice hard cock in your mouth, and you are making another man so turned on that you won't have a single regret. You are definitely going to enjoy it. One suggestion I have is to think about this sometime when playing with yourself and when you cum, think about it again (without sex hormones flowing fully through your body/brain) and decided if it's something you really want to try...that's the reality of it, when you are done is it something you are glad you tried?

 

yep finding another married guy who has to be safe and discreet seems like the key. Sometimes when I get in the mood (like uh, now) I wish I could snap my fingers and have a nice sane guy with a big hard cock show up for me to play with. I saw one online today that I wanted to lube up and stroke off... I think I have a devious side (had an affair with another woman once) and the idea of having a married guy who I meet up with once and while for secret cocksucking fun sounds good...

 

Oh well, it might have to remain a hidden desire as the risks are a bit high when married, but the thought of having a big cock in my mouth, practicing deep throat and feeling and tasting resulting cum is highly desirable when feeling at all a bit horny.

 

Well yesterday I chatted online with a guy, traded cock pics and came in my pants to thought of being sucked and sucking him. I did feel a little guilty afterwards...

 

I guess it really boils down to the question of if you want to know what it's like or if you are satisfied being curious about it? There are risks and issues with going through with it, but then again it can be a one time thing or you may find as many others have on here at some point how much they enjoy it and find yourself a regular special friend where the two of you can share all kinds of pleasure.

 

Yes a special friend who wants to get me off and has a nice big cock for me to touch for the first time sounds very intriguing...

 

I once sucked a cock during an mmf 3 some and have too confess I enjoyed it, I would be tempted to do it again.