Fuck liars.

yeah. know what is sad but im sure not surprizing to you? their decline... was QUICK. within two weeks it spiraled outta control. it was like the blink of an eye.

I'm sure as HELL NOT gonna become that so this IS a blessing in disguise. I quit now. I won't get sick but in two weeks or even one week.. i was on the edge...

so thank u jess n will for fucking me over.

 

meh, i've done the same thing, and i suspect so have most of the other people who have commented here...

ya learn from it and move on...

 

I lived something like that 10 years ago. Never stole or fucked people over, but fell in within a month and it took forever just to recover from that

Of course some of the people I was around always stopped by unannounced and pounded on my door wanting me to throw in. I pretended I was not home a lot

 

i gotta go now to get beer. i need it. im upset.

ill be back soon though so keep posting and i get you a lot more now,gar.

 

just a couple right? remember, learn to deal with your problems without drugs..

 

I feel ya babe it's good you're doing what you're doing I want to talk to you again tonight.

 

I really wish you didn't feel the need to hurt yourself so badly T. You're a good person, but you feel compelled to hurt yourself over and over again. So as a friend, I'm going to be a dick. Because that's what real friend do. They stand up to each other.

You need to knock it off or you'll destroy yourself completely.

 

If I had a gun.... blah.

I just came clean to Dan about what happened and the shooting up n all..


got a lot of i told you so's but im really done.


But yeah I like hurting myself and I'm not sure why.

Manda, do you have gmail?

 

yeah im not drinking a lot but i dont feel good today.


is it fucked up that in the past three days i ate...

let's see prolly...

1.5 cups of blueberries, a half a bowl of cereal that amanda made me eat (thank you sweetie) and umm...i dont even remember what.

AND im not hungry. at all.

 

just saw that. im already moving on and learning.

i dont hate them... i hate what they've become but ill be okay.

 

No but I have AIM and YIM

 

anyways... i keep re-reading your posts. all of them. because it seems like stuff i should have known but now im seeing it first hand.... well, it's reality.

and it's weird ... i start this thread mad...vented a bit then sobbed. now im sitting here with cramps and well, smiling really. just because i feel like the bigger person for not hating them for it.... understanding it's not them but the drug and knowing (KNOWING!) ill never do it again.

 

You are the bigger person Trish. It makes me love you even more knowing that you are making such good choices. You deserve a cookie.

 

"Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It's not something you learn in school. But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything." (obviously your so called friends dont know this.

I just have one question.....were you mad at them or mad that you didnt get your fix? I can remember when I did meth all the time, i would get so mad that I got some bunk shit and I would say the same shit, how could they do this shit to me? etc...i figured out later that it wasnt that my "so called friends" fucked me over by selling me bunk shit, it was the fact that I didnt get the fix.

Drug buddies are not your friends, they are your drug buddies once you quit doing it, you will see who your true friends are and believe me trish, been there done that.

I love you and am kinda really bummed about todays events for you. I really thought you were getting better. . I know this is going to sound like a mom type thingy, but hey, cant help it.. I am like so dissappointed right now and I really sad that you are going through what you are going through. I wish there was a way I could help you.

 

do you want a gmail invite? i use it MUCH more then aim.


it has benefits.

 

At FIRST i was mad that I wasted my money and didn't get high... not only that but it was PAINFUL.

I didn't even realize they did it then either so I wasn't mad at them.

Once it kicked in and I chilled out later....

I was mad at them. Then my anger disapated (spelling!) and I became sad and disapointed with them. Does that answer the question?

 

I'm going to make myself an account right now babe.

 

sweet.

im

imamightytiger@gmail.com on there.

heh.

 

yes it does.

 

Eh...I think I like aim better.