ill be your friends aha i just started homeschooling like yesterday i didnt go to school for 3 weeks uhh i just find it really hard to be motivated to do it okay so i got these booklets full of stuff my mom bought it at a christian book store of course shes alwaysss forcing religion on me i dont like that even though ive been going to church my whole life so of course i feel something when i go to church thats a whole different subject but anyways so these books are full of stuff about the bible, they hide the information that you're really supposed to learn? it makes it seem like insignificance but then they ask questions about it i think i might get a bit lonely but not really none of my friends were ever in my classes i never saw them at all only like 2 at lunch but they were all just people i talked to at school they didnt really care about me oh it feels so much better not to be in school you should be glad you are homeschooled you get held back on so much life when your in public school like i have time to live my life everyday and it makes me think about things like if i keep doing this this isn't getting me anywhere i have plenty of time to think and dude ive been learning so much about myself im so stupid! or at least it seems like it im 17 and i dont really act like it i dont think i have the brain for it maybe its the drugs but everyone tells me they dont effect your brain they definitely bring my insides out & my intuition but it also has me questioning everything making me want to beat myself for being so stupid and im constantly looking for an answer to get my brain up to date and to use my life wisely im always itching to get out and make a difference but i dont have a car i'd get in a lot of trouble to my mom leaving the house is a rare thing and its a privilege to leave well mosty because she thinks im just up to trouble well maybe im up tp "trouble" but its not really trouble at all im just learning and all i see is that everyones confused but when i stop looking we just have fun and forget im not sure which ones the right one <3333333333 this had nothing to do well it kind of did i dont know but i guess my fingers got carried away