Where I never thought I would be...

Please try to understand my situation before you go crazy on me. I am a 38 yr old single guy, who has fallen in love with a married woman. I never ever thought I would be in these shoes, as I went through a rough divorce after being married 10 years. My ex put me through hell, cheating on me twice before I finally sent her out of my life. I have been divorced now for 3 years.

Well, the past 2 years of my life have been crazy. It all started with simple conversation, and to be honest, I never ever thought once about anything happening because i trusted myself. I knew the pain of a spouse cheating on someone! There was no way in hell i could ever do that! Though she is a very hot woman..I can honestly say for 6 months the thought never went through my head.

Well..the physical and mental attraction finally took over. And her marriage has been rough for quite some time. But for 6 months I offered my advice, though I told her it wasnt my business. Told her to get counceling, do whatever she had to do to not end up like me. I even talked to her husband about it, and gave him a councelers #.
Finally one night it just happened. I really cant even expalin it, except for the feeling of guilt I carried the next month of my life. I was mad at her, myself, and just wanted to crawl in a hole and die. I mean, I know the pain of finding out your spouse cheated!!!
But as months went by, she honestly was throwing herself at me every day that she could. It a way, I looked at her as a bad person, and it made me unattracted to her....but something happened and i cant explain..

We have now been seeing one another for a year and a half. I have fought it with everything I have. I have broke it off 5 times, only to fall back into lust. I really never let my guard down to her for whatever reason, even though she bought me gifts for christmas, sent me bday cards..etc...I swear I wanted her to just leave me alone!!

But here I am..19 months into this, and i have fallen in love with her. Her marriage is aweful, but i know that doesnt make this right. Just 10 days ago I broke it off again and was an ass to her..thinkin it was the right thing to do and her seeing me be an ass would finally help us break apart. We agreed not to talk, but that lasted 11 hours. My guard is finally gone, and she has serious feelings for me as well. Where in the hell do I go from here?? Please...Im already starting to tell her some feelings i have, and ive never done that! She is so unhappy at home, and my life without her sucks. I know its not right! I need advice bad...sorry this turned out so long..it almost feels good just to type it out..thanks to all

 

end it...bottom line.

You are banging a married woman and have been for a year and a half? And she still hasn't left her husband? Yeah...end it.

I don't care how in love you are, what you are doing is terribly and morally wrong. You are destroying her family and when it does fall apart and you realize its cuz of you, you are going to hate yourself beyond belief.

 

Just a thought....Don't be anything more to her then cordial, don't call her or accept any from her any longer. Get involved in HOBBIES to share with new people you can get to know. Since you've developed an emtional involvment, you have the option of letting her know you have and whether or not you want to continue the relationship. If you do, you have the option of expecting her to be free and available to do so.
You're being used as a play-thing in my opinion. So buck up butter cup get strong and don't settle for this crap in life from anyone, you can and will fall in love again if you choose to move forward! Peace and blessings to you

 

ooh gross....if her hubby is still around it means she is fucking and sucking both of you...that means that you are tasting his cock every time you kiss her mouth or eat her pussy


how does he taste?

 

:2thumbsup:

 

Stop seeing her until she separates from her husband.

 

Hahaha! Maybe she baths a lot!

 

So funny!

 

dude.....she is married, think how u felt when ur wifey cheated on you.

if u have been fucking this chick for a year and a half and her marriage is that BAD.. why the hell is she still with him? does she have any intentions to leave him for you?

if she does leave him do you not think that one day she may cheat again whilst she is with u? if she can do it to her husband now (no matter how bad their marriage is) then she can sure do it again.

 

I never thought or wanted her to leave her husband..I have told her not to leave and try to work it out 1000 times..to be honest I never liked her that way until just this month..all the sudden I am starting to like her that way..and I dont want her to know becuz it really may cause her to leave...damn...
I know its WRONG...
Thanks to everyones comments..been a big help, sometimes a slap in the face of reality is what I need

 

trash

 

That was a huge help..thanks