Random confessions

For us all to list what comes to mind....

Judgement free zone

1) Whenever I say “I agree to disagree,” I’m often just being lazy, and simply don’t care to debate anymore.

2) I’m not a feminist anymore

3) I fear so much in life but working on it.

4) I ponder threesomes, and know exactly who I would ask to join if it ever were to happen. That’s a huge “if.”

Confess away.

 

Hmmm.........

1 - I'm not a feminist by any means, but I respect those who are deserving of being respected, and quite many of them are women. So, I like to think I'm not sexist either, lol.

2 - There's a belief system in the world that is pretty much universal, and I'd like to refrain from revealing what that actually is. But let's just say, I don't follow that, and that makes me a threat even though I'm really NOT in reality.

3 - I definitely ponder threesomes, but I love my girlfriend and I'm able to say that with conviction. So, if she isn't up for it then no threesomes for us, no biggie. But she's still going to tolerate that I have certain personal preferences as long as those don't actually rule/consume me in a destructive way.

4 - I actually do regard myself as an Alpha, or at least would like to be a genuine Alpha that is also gentle and serene, rather than what most people stereotypically think an "alpha" is like. Think Jeremy Danvers from Bitten, especially the TV adaptation just because he was awesome.

5 - I cry easily these days, lol. Well, depending on what kind of situation I'm in. But there are emotionally engaging TV commercials and those tend to make me all teary-eyed, so yeah, lol.

 

1: I hate working for other people. No issue taking orders just don't feel like most bosses should be giving them

2: I hate most people in real life. In 28 years of livin' I can count on one hand the number of other humans I actually enjoy spending time with.

3: Before I met my ex wife I mostly bottled up my emotions & dealt with life's shit alone. Now that I'm getting divorced I find myself reverting back to that.

4: I do believe there are certain circumstances when abortion is a viable option. I do not however agree with the idea that a woman who got pregnant just because she wanted to have sex ( likely often) should be able to abort the child. It's called taking responsibility for your damn actions. They know the risk. They should be prepared to deal with the outcome.

5: I am labeled an asshole by about 85% of people I know or have ever known & I don't give a damn.

 

@Alternative_Thinker - thanks for sharing. Your #4 - agree. Men who need to beat their chests and put women down and think that’s what alpha is, are definitely misguided.

@BeatinFeet69 - you don’t strike me as an asshole at all. Maybe you’re hanging out with wrong people lol

 

My ex and most of her friends would disagree. They all think I act and think like an old crotchety bastard. But thanks

 

Hey, you're welcome. I think it comes partially from the way I was brought up. But whatever the case, I just focus on not completely losing control of the situation that I may find myself in. I'm not saying I'm always successful, but everything has to start somewhere at least, lol.

 

My confession is that I'm a piece of shit.

 

Are you being serious?

You're not a pos. No matter what circumstances have unraveled in your life to make you think this.

 

Some more from me:

1) I like my alone time, and I'm not apologizing for it, anymore.
2) I like to spend money more than save it.
3) I'm on the fence about getting a nose ring, just a teeny tiny diamond spec of a nose ring on the side of my nose.
4) Even though there are dark moments, I choose to think that most people are good, and life is beautiful. If that makes me naïve, so be it.

 

That's sweet. But I really am. :/

Got drunk the other night... Haven't seen my girl since January or heard from her in two weeks..I sexted someone. It was brief. I regret it... Would never have done it under ordinary circumstances. But the fact remains I did in fact do it.

At first I tried to mentally weasle out of it... Like is it really cheating? I looked that up... 79% of people polled thought it was worse than their partner actually kissing someone.

*sigh* I suck.

It's just I'm in this transition period, and I'm like... Ridiculously lonely. I miss my girl terribly.

 

Damn. Getting misty eyed thinking about it. What a fucking pussy.

 

If you're still in a legit relationship, it ''could be'' considered cheating, but I remember your story, and sounds like it's done. If she still has you blocked, then it doesn't seem like the relationship is still going on. The fact that you feel bad about it should tell you that you're not a pos. Cuz lots of people legit cheat, and don't feel bad about it.

Maybe, you should try to contact her, and put your ego aside, and put it all out there. You know, be chivalrous. Apologize, and start over, if she's willing. You can at least say you tried.

 

More stuff about me because I'm in a sharing mood right now, which is actually kinda rare!

1 - I like my alone time as well. I actually need it. Hell hath no fury like AT deprived of his AT time.

2 - Some people think I'm a piece of shit for sure, haha. xD

3 - Oh, and the way I type makes me appear younger than I really am, lol.

 

Well we did talk... I actually asked her to keep me blocked while I get my head straight. Fine job I'm doing of that. But technically... We're still together. Last I heard anyway. Lol!

...

 

Then,..........you cheated. Sorry, not sorry.

 

Yeah... I know. :/

 

@McFuddy first one's for you

1: I've gotten hammered almost every night since my woman said she wanted that divorce. Been doin' it to kill the pain away & because it lets me ignore the profound sense of loneliness I feel.

2: 4 years ago after a massive argument during which divorce was threatened I found myself standing at the door of another woman (one who actually talked to me & listened to what I had to say). I was there to do it with her & I knew she would. She let me in & at first we started kissing but then I just started crying. Told her I was sorry couldn't cheat on my wife. She got it and instead we talked for almost 4 hours about shit before I got up & went home.

3: I had a hardcore porn addiction when I first got married & instead of dealing with it I blamed my wife for my problem. Don't get me wrong she was always flirting with other dudes & chicks but it wasn't her fault I was into porn.

 

One more:

I love the show, ''Keeping up with the Kardashians.''

Now, shit just got real lol

 

Never seen it. Heard of it but I couldn't give enough of a shit to watch

 

@McFuddy and @BeatinFeet69 - just want to give you some advice, fwiw. Don't build your self worth around what women think of you. Work on your own self worth. I get break ups are hard, but your life shouldn't crumble to the ground over a relationship ending. No person is worth you ruining your life over. I love my husband, but my self worth isn't built around what he thinks of me. Of course, we all get validated in relationships, but I used to date toxic guys, looking for approval. And kept wondering why I was always in bad, crazy relationships. If you keep looking for women to tell you who you are as men, you will end up here again. And again.

You can't make someone love you. Or want you. Be good to yourselves. ((hug))