I know what your thinking but hey maybe this one will be differant!?!?!?!?

Ok so i am 15. (I know kinda youn. o well my mind is where a 25 year old is at k). I never really care what other people think but i do try and look nice.. I wear glasses so yeah you can make up your own mind about that. I think i am really friendly but i am super duper to the max shy. I have my group of friends that i dont really stray away from. I have not really been into toalking to girls just casue i never had the self confidence. Well going into high school i thought i would try something new. I have somewhat long hair (3+ inches) and growing. I am a very bright person on the inside but on the outside it is more of a punk rock type of thing. I love to listen to metal and mosh. So yeah, studs, leather, and black is my thing.

I like to play paintball competitivly ad regularly and LOVE to skateboard. So i mean i guess i have some interesting hobbies. I also play a little guitar. My only problem i see in myself is hat i am to shy and dont ahve any self esteem. When iget a pair and try to talk to someone my words are like a soup that jsut kinda falls out of my mouth and i dont really make sense. I found a girl that liked me and wewent out for a little bit (2 weeks give or take a week) and then her dad found out. That was over. After this i got rejected by a girl that i have li8ked for quite some time. Sh gave me whole lets jsut be friends kinda thing. I was like ok sure why not but really my short, newly gained confidence was flushed down the toilet. I want to find a girl that i can talk to, love and be able to tell her anything. I jsut am really shy but everytime i talk i seem to just try and explain every thing super in detail. I am not the best a holding a conversation but i can if i find the right person. Thats the thing though....finding the right person. I have had a girlfriend before but that was like some 5t grade love and havnt had one since. What are somethings that i can work on to get me to be more social and aactually talk to differant people???? Wat are differant things that i can talk about casue i am not religious (agnostic) and hate politics (couldnt really give a shit). BTW this forum is amazing. love you guys