I have a problem!

I'm addicted to porn. There were a few times when I thought I'd kicked the habit, but apparently not. The problem with it is that I feel I can't tell anyone. In a way I'd like to have a sponsor or something, to put me into line when I get that rush for it.

In realising my problem. I often forbid myself from using my PC to jerk off for a week or more. When this time would elapse, I might then jerk off to a porno. And though that's all well and good (as I keep my promise), a few hours later, I'd be sitting around and I might realise that there's nothing to stop me doing it again!!! But this time I might find myself needing more kinky porn. It might get a bit out of control for a few days until I make a new commitment.

So I basically go from one extreme to the other. In the greater scheme of things it might mean that I don't end up spending too much time at porn, but for those few days when I don't think about banning myself, I can be completely at the mercy of porn. It also takes longer to wank when I use porn. Often while one video will be loading, I'll be already looking at the captions for other listed videos. Another thing, is when I think of the best orgasms I've had, a lot of them didn't involve porn at all; though the initial temptation to using porn is greater.

But often they're temptations that I don't anticipate. Let's say I forbid myself from watching porn, but not from using my laptop. Then I might say to myself "I didn't forbid myself from googling images". I'd then be led to a great looking porn video with one of these images... which I wouldn't be allowed to watch... and I wouldn't watch it! BUT I'd think about it non stop until the point would arrive that I would be allowed to watch. I then would look forward to it so much that I'd give myself the idea that it would be a fantastic video. Then the video would be different from the way I imagined it, and would be let down! I'd then think to myself, "if I'd just watched it in the first place I could've moved on straight away". I also find that if I break any rules about what kinds of porn I can and can;t watch, that from there forth I'll subconsciously take these rules less seriously.

This problem reminds me a lot of something I heard Elton John say before. Here, at 6:42, he talks about battling his drug addiction, and how he thought he could do it all himself. I should really try and get this under control some how. Perhaps I'm lucky that I've come this far without getting caught. You might be in your room, but there's various ways in which you can still get caught!



It's probably one of the more shameful addictions to have. Something like smoking for example might do you more harm, but you mightn't feel like quite as much of a fool. As of now, I'm just after wacking off to a porno and have said to myself that I won't watch another for a week.

 

I hope this helps:

 

if only we were allowed to post porn here, we could turn this into the unappealing porn thread.

 

(@Vanilla Gorilla)
I'll take her Juuuust liiiike thaaaat, would make insanely mad love to her in front of all of HF!

 

??? Theresa May?

 

Yeeeeessss, got damnit, yeeeesssss!!

 

Sorry to hear this

Maybe there's a support group or something?

I think this is a very common addiction, especially these days. There's got to be some resources out there to help you get better.

 

I think you are just messing with my head

 

you could move to canada. don't they have an internet quota or something?

 

shame is in the eye of the perspective, as long as it causes no harm.

i know people have a problem with not telling each other what to pretend.

shame is for putting aggressiveness ahead of what everyone has to live with,
not for anything you do only to yourself when no one else has to know about it.

 

You need to enter a recovery and rehab center for porn addicts

 

rehab centers are what drive people to mind altering substances.

 

that's one way of looking at it. people telling each other what to pretend doesn't make sense to begin with either.

 

My status as the King of Porn is greatly exaggerated

 

Start by deleting your porn collection, one folder at a time.

 

It's not that I wouldn't prefer the real thing. I tried the PUA thing really hard over the summer, and am taking a short break from it now.

I've been handling the porn well since I started this thread.

 

Pun intended?

 

^^^..LOL..........



Cheers Glen.

 

No. Only watched two, and I'm staying away from the femdom.

 

Reckon you best just get your junk removed. Guaranteed to put an end to all your addictions at once. Possibly start a pain addiction though

 

Now I have another problem.....I'm impotent!

 

"Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law" - Crowley

Just don't worry about it. Looking at porn is okay.