Who else has Fuck up moments? I keep getting told that I am "going of the rails" and that I am being stupid in the things that I do. Sometimes, I just like it and find the things that I enjoy are different to the norm, but sometimes I feel like I need to lose control and act wildly - drinking, experimenting etc with the intention of screwing things and myself up. Anyone else with me on this?
constantly. i wonder where all the maturity and good sense i once possessed went to. and i try to behave properly and not make an ass of myself, but fail completely. oh well, embarassment isn't fatal.
I have shit due at midnight and a speech I MIGHT (but probably won't have to) do Monday. I just barely started both of these despite today being Valentine's DAy and me wanting to hang out with her as much as I can. I'll be taking her home early tonight, I think =/ I don't really get fuck up moments too much - I get lazy moments, lethargic moments, and emotionally broken moments =P
Sometimes I just disappear for a few days, sleeping wherever, doing whatever. Not giving a fuck about anything, like tonight I could just leave again.
i have a shit due right about now. luckily, i finally made it to the store to pick up some tp this morning.
Summer I always end up living like that, last summer I just sort of said fuck it and went to Europe without telling any of my family, I mean I was in England for a week with a friend but then we just decided to go to Europe to try and get to Sziget festival in Budapest...I got as far as Amsterdam before losing my bank card and had to hitch back but the others got to Sziget That was just a 3 week stint though, this Summer Im going for good...with hardly any money. Sometimes its good just to say fuckit and deal with the consequences when they arise. I mean if your going to constantly think about things fucking up and going wrong then where would you end up in life? Good just to go a little crazy sometimes, spontaneity is what makes life fun
Ill see you there! Im trying to sort a few things out before I go, a few back up plans at least. I have work and places to stay in Belgium, Holland, Hungary, Czech and Spain
Looks like your getting there. Last year I disappeared to Paris, it was amazing. I made friends with an artist in Montmartre and he taught me a little about painting, although I am still pretty bad at it! I got by busking; I don't need a lot of money, just enough to get me by.
Exactly Two of my friends had a banjo and ukulele and had no money with them but each day they made enough for food and drugs, in Utrecht a council worker gave them a quarter of skunk :sifone: we also rolled joints with police in Rotterdam
Most places I have been seem much more relaxed that the UK. I am away to India soon and am so excited; might be just what I need. I would love a life of travelling.
